Monday, March 18, 2013

"Don't You Worry Child"

   
 Marcos, although we don't talk much I have to say I'm Very Proud of You! You have came so far and your still continuing moving forward!
                   
             As we all know by now life consists obstacles. Some individuals happen to have more obstacles than others. We don't exactly know why this exactly happens because some get it really rough by just what happens in their life. For example, some people have gone through loosing their loved ones, going homeless, and sometimes even being addicted to drugs or alcohol. 
             In my cousin Marcos case, it happened to be a "divorce" and "remarriage" that became a  tragic for him. I don't know how many of you actually remember my cousin, he also attended Holbrook High School like us I believe he graduated in 2007 a year before my brother. Of course after any school year, summer kicks in and the unforgettable fun occurs.  Well, for my cousins "fun" he decided to go to a party out in Sun Valley for the night. He didn't like being home because of the decision his parents have made. He was out partying every chance he could during the summer time. Until, one night he didn't come back with a DD and decided to drive himself back home.
          The worst choice you can make while under the influence of alcohol is drive yourself back on the highway. This night he decided to make a poor choice turned to be something permanent. He ran off road and landed in a ditch. The cops were called, they arrived at scene, and put my cousin in the back of the car for underage drinking. He was in jail until he had a court day. The night my aunt had finally heard from him turned out to be one of the most hardest moments of my aunts life. My cousin was to leave Holbrook, Arizona at nine in the morning, he was getting deported back to Mexico. He didn't even get to tell his mom or any rest of the little family we do have here in town goodbye. 
          He called back home little so often. I believe he was more angry towards life than anything else. He didn't know how to accept any of the things that was happening to him at the time. My aunts in Mexico picked him up at the bus station in Mexico. They dropped him off at his fathers house, who moved down months before the incident so I maybe it was meant to be. Over the time he kept himself away from my aunt and mothers family side. He never visited them. Hardest part for my aunt was never hear her sons voice or see him simply because of the other choice he had made. He decided to part himself from my his moms family side believing that it was all their fault that everything had happened. The divorce, the DUI, and the alcohol problem he had started. 
           One year later, he decided to talk to the Nevarez side of the family again. It wasn't very often but when we did hear from him it would make our day even better! My aunt never had the chance to say bye to him, to hug him, to even explain anything that had happen throughout everything. But, as time progressed he started to get back on track. He wanted to go back to school, he had gotten a job, and the thing that changed his life the most was rodeoing. He went from never talking to his family in Mexico to seeing them every weekend now at his rodeo events. This summer was the first time I have seen him over five years... I couldn't believe it when I hugged him how much he has changed although he still has a problem with alcohol still he had a different meaning of life to live by now. He doesn't have much regret anymore. The best part about everything is that in about 8 days my aunt and little cousin will be traveling to Mexico and for once in six years my aunt will finally get to hug her son again and let everything they may have inside them go. 
             No matter how bad the obstacle may be I believe if we really tried and took the time we could make it change us for the good instead of going towards the bad. Although every individual has a different mind set I say they should take the word of advice from the song on my video "don't you worry child, heaven got a plan for you." - Swedish House Mafia. I think that it's true we all have a plan for us. Even if it takes a bad divorce and partying situations to help us get to our potential plan! 

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

"Goodbye Gravity, Welcome Change"


  “Goodbye Gravity, Welcome Change”

         As I was sitting at church, listening to the reader, I couldn’t help but catch a sentence that has been stuck in my head. “The old things past now; behold, the new things have came.” This has been repeating over and over again in my mind. As usual God always finds a way to speak to me, if it’s through shooting stars to the words from the gospel, whatever, it may be it is usually at the right time to get through something.
       Must be pathetic, but, I am still a little bruised from the season that has been over for about three weeks. I believe it was probably for putting to much time into the program. I basically wrote out their scavenger hunt list for this summer and will most likely buy them a thing of detergent for laundry. The old contained investing all my free time and time to “basketball” not just practicing everyday, but taking care of the girls. Every year after the season would come to a halt, I found myself a week later working out again with the Vertimax and a game in the gym for open gym. Every summer I would wake up an hour earlier than the girls help set up the gym for summer league, plus stay an extra thirty minutes afterwards to help clean up.  This was my “old things” in my life that I noticed has past now
It’s not just basketball that has changed overtime. It used to be that my friends were number one on my list on my spare time out of the gym. I put my family aside for three years in high school. Come home eat silently, go to my room, lock the door, and go to sleep. This was my everyday life at home. I made my friends my family and never noticed. It hurt my mom and brother everyday. Sadly, it had drifted me from my father, which in if it is anyone’s fault it is defiantly mine Family and friends play a big part in my heart just as much as a team and sport.
       It took a scripture to open my eyes up just a little bit more to what life really consist of. Now, the new things that happened to appear in my life is more noticeable. Now, that basketball is over I can now look for a job again, coach little kids, do my homework earlier, not worry about the girls as much (although I still do), wash my car, take the dog for a walk, go to baseball games, go golfing, and the list can go on. This summer doesn’t have to consist staying in a gym for 12 hours anymore. Instead, I can go to Flagstaff, watch a movie, get ready to move, go fishing, hang out with my brother, and number one on my list go visit my family in Mexico for more than a couple days! My friends well this is what is one new thing that took time to process. I have lost more friends along the way this year than any other year. It was hard to accept at the time. It is not that we aren’t friends, because in reality they are still friends in my heart and memories, I personally just stopped hanging out with them 24/7 and made my family on weekends now.
       I can go on and on about how much my life has changed overtime. But, I believe that most of us seniors can agree that everyone’s life changes without us really noticing. Until we take the time and actually think of the old things that has past on. I know for a fact I didn’t notice the “new things” that has slowly appeared in my life. Like the new friends I have met around our area and how funny my mom can actually be. In a few months we will be graduating which is defiantly going to be one of the biggest changes for all of us. Whatever the road it may lead us to we just need to remember not to be afraid of the change and not be afraid to let go to what our life once contained of even if we will miss it we will always have the wonderful memories to take with