Sunday, February 24, 2013

"Memories Last Forever, Experiences Happen ONCE."

58 Teams...
Numerous amount of games played in a season...
Numerous amount of hours put in during pre-season...
4 Teams come out with a new record of 0-0...
2 Teams are left standing...
1 Team comes out with what was on their mind since the first day of practice.


            Last year, around this time of year the boys were playing in the Final Four. As I sat their a text message came through to my phone. The boys were heading into their second overtime. The message, "how do the boys get so dang lucky." I sat their hesitating what to even reply. I didn't have an answer. Until, I final sent the truth "I don't know. But, I swear that is going to be us next year."
      For the past two nights and two days, I have been curled up in a little ball crying my heart out. I have cried with my sisters before we took our different routes after our game. I have cried with my mother hugging me through it all. It's not that I'm crying because we did not return with the gold ball. Although, that would of been a more happier ending to this incredible journey. It's the fact that I will no longer be hearing the laughs I'm used to, I will no longer be seeing the smiling faces, I will no longer have the same pranks, most of all I will no longer have my family by my side every summer and the five months of the school year.
      My emotions are up in a roller coaster. I know I'll be back on track simply because I know that life goes on. But, it's just so hard when I know for a fact that my house won't be a hotel anymore. That girls won't be staying the night. I loved and still do love this team with all my heart. They were the ones that got me through some rough patches in my life. Like Samantha said in hers. We used basketball as our get away. Basketball, has gotten me to a point where I forgave my parents ten years ago. Basketball, has taught me that when rough times come you got to keep pushing through because at the end of the day the sun will rise. Most of all, basketball was the one that took the word "hope" out of my vocabulary and brought endless "faith" in my world.
       Enough about that. I told the younger girls in the locker room Friday night that I could not find the right words to tell them. I told them if they want to know what was on my mind to read my blog where everything will be said as best as I can. Here goes nothing.
       THANK YOU! You made one of my dreams come true. Not only mine,but, also the six other seniors that spent numerous amount with your craziness. In the beginning of the season I felt so lost. You guys didn't know how bad I was. I always smiled every year during the season. But, in the beginning a smile wouldn't creep up on in my face. Simply, because I missed the other seniors and didn't want to be the leader. I didn't want you guys looking up to me. Because, I know I make mistakes as much as you guys. After time progressed everything started getting better. Attitudes were changing incredibly. Difference between you youngsters were going away. Most of all the laughter, smiles, and joyfulness was entering my heart again. You guys have came so far just as sophomores and I see a lot more talent in each and everyone of you than what we had. Thats what we Seniors had, we had work ethic to drive. Our work ethic and your help got us to where we ended a great season. Now, next year I want you to continue being close sisters, I want you to take the challenge to keep working hard, not complain when we have to run, to smile, to pick on Perkins keep him young, keep your head up when getting yelled at, and most of all have fun with one another time does fly. P.S. now it is time to find someone else who will wash your jersey's and clothes I'm going  miss being your teammate, sister, and most importantly your basketball mom.
  I know these individuals will strive even farther and believe even more. Next year, I'll be joining my other sisters from the past watching our little siblings going after the same thing we have all wished for. It's hard to explain. But, that is because my heart is bruised at this moment and it feels as if my videos can explain everything. It explains how close we actually are, how much work we put in, and how much time we spent together. Four years of Holbrook High School is now over. I will miss every single one of those wonderful individuals and most of all I will miss the fatherly figure we have on the team. Mr. Greg Perkins. Who is my "it is what it is" neighbor. I will truly miss this man as well as the rest of the team. Like Sam said he has sacrifice so much for us. He deserved to go to Glendale with us and most likely he will end up bringing something marvelous to Holbrook High some day. No words can describe how much he actually means to us. I guess before I write a whole novel I'll leave it to this. Kia Kaha. Keep everything going and I'm glad I didn't get a gold ball because the memories and experience are more rewarding to me than anything!

7 comments:

  1. I cannot even begin to express how proud I am of you! This year has truly proved to be great! When the entire world was falling down around you, you somehow managed to pick yourself up and keep pushing on! That shows just how amazing of a person you are! I felt your pain through that hug after the game. But, as tears streamed down both of our faces, I knew that you would overcome this sadness. Just as the song in your first video says, “this isn’t easy, it isn’t clear. And you don’t need Jesus until you’re here.” How incredibly true is this! I know that your heart is hurting because a major part of your life for the past four years has come to a halt. But, I use the word halt for a reason. This is not the end, Jess. It is only the beginning of something even greater for you! I can’t help but smile when I imagine all of the amazing things that you will do in your future! I love you, sis!

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  2. It is amazing to me how for four years straight we talked about, thought about, and did something for basketball each and every day. We had found a passion that kept a drive within us through all of our ups and downs. I just want to thank you for all that you have done for the program, the girls, and most importantly me. Like Perkins said, we all look up to you even though most of us have to look down to you to talk. You have showed us that it is super important to just get up and go. Things are always going to be tough but we can get through it if we rely on those close to us and do everything physically possible ourselves that we can. I have grown close to you over the years and am forever grateful for all that you have taught me. Thank you and there is not another group of girls that I would have rather spent the last four years of my life with.

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  3. Wow, I cannot put into words what I just saw and read. But I'm going to try. You are the hardest working, passionate, faithful individual I have ever met. I mean that truly and in the most divine way. You have showed Holbrook, your family, and your girls how much you love them. You are always so happy and cheerful, but this is a time in your life that is going to show how absolutely strong you are. The family you have made over this journey is going to support you know matter what because you were the hope, Jessica. They knew how hard you believed in them and they in turn have learned from your example and leadership of how have a true bond. You will leave a legacy that Holbrook will not forget and defiantly what Perkins won't forget. I know it must seem like it's all over, but you will get through it because God will always be there for you and He will show you the light. Thank you for being my role model, and the strongest, mentally tough, and loving person I know. I'm crying again! Dang it!!

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  4. I love your passion for basketball! I love that it has helped you threw your ups and downs. You show such great leadership for those girls! I'm so happy that basketball has helped you see differently and have more Faith and Hope and helping you believe! You girls did amazing! I'm so happy i got to see you girls make history! Keep these memories with you forever! Spread your passion of basketball to everyone! love you Jess!

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  5. Jessica you have so much heart and passion and love for EVERYTHING you do. Whether it is a relationship with a friend or being part of a team you love (basketball) or a team that you maybe care a liiittle less about (like maybe soccer?;)) you give 210 percent no matter what! I can't tell you how much I admire that. You have such a big heart and every time I talk to you I feel as if we have been friends forever and that you genuinely care about me. You will go so far in life no matter what you do, thank you for being an inspiration to me. and congratulations on making it to the final four this year and having a wonderful season!

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  6. Jessica, I am so glad that you see the “positive” side the reason I say “positive” is because it’s not really positive it’s kind of just a good side. Throughout the season I have noticed something great about you, after every game you managed to be happy, which is something not all of us do after bad games or after games we play not so great in. I looked up to you for that because I know you well and I know that basketball is your life and passion. I believe that you and your team deserved to make it to the final four you guys gave your heart and passion for this and you made it happen, you made history happen! That is such a wonderful thing. I understand that it was a little heartbreaking but I know that it is more heartbreaking to end the season. You created a bond with the sport and the girls that was so special and it makes sense for you to cry. I learned from your blog that memories are more important than experiences. I love you !

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  7. Jessica I love your attitude about this. It seems like when someone experiences something really depressing or upsetting, like losing a final four basketball game, all they can do is focus on what they could have had. They forget all of the great, wonderful times and memories they had and focus on the one thing they lost. You are absolutely right. You girls should not be upset that you did not get the gold ball. You guys made all of Holbrook proud to be roadrunners. I also think you gave some great advice to the younger players. You could tell by the way you girls played on the court that you all liked each other. That is why I believe you got as far as you did. You all teamed up together with a common goal and you almost reached it. You guys did great.

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